First love

I remember this so vividly!

It was in my first year of engineering. I was chatting with one of my friends and he happened to ask me if my keyboard was working fine. I told him,

Keyboard?! I dont have one!

He bursted out laughing. I didnt realise why until he asked me how I was typing so much without a keyboard. It was then that I realised he actually asked me about the computer-keyboard.

I just presumed that it had to be the musical keyboard he was talking about.

I wonder when and how music became such a big part of my life. Well, to say, its not just a part of my life. It is my life!

My first and eternal love, always with me in rough and tough, really brings me back to mood everytime!

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unrest ++ ;
disturbed mind, soul at unrest ... as if some volcano is gonna erupt from within ...

waiting ... waiting ...

Excitement ... Anxiety ...

Dreams coming true!!!

life transitions

A short term life change characterized by sharp, quick discontinuity with past - this is the formal definition of life transition you would find on the web.

It is not as complex as it sounds. Any quick change, positive or negative, that happens in our day-to-day lives are transitions.

How easy is it to cope transitions?!

Positive transitions are always welcome. Yes, why not. Why wouldnt anyone welcome positive experiences like a windfall ?!

But, how good are we at handling negative ones? If it is unexpected then it is really worse. Even when it is expected, if you dont train your mind adequately, it is really hard to accept the negative transitions in life.

They are challenging because they begin with a string of losses. They cause us to leave behind the familiar and force us to adjust to new ways of living, at least temporarily. When a transition from positive to negative is expected, and especially if it is known to happen regularly, it becomes really difficult for the mind to get set accordingly. They can leave us feeling completely unprepared, dejected and withdrawn, in turn bringing in resistance to everything.

It will take a while before you begin to accept the change.

Best way out is to accept that change is a normal part of life. People who have this attitude seem to have the easiest time getting through life transitions. Expect to feel uncomfortable as the time of transition is confusing and disorienting.

Life is a roller coaster ride, anyway! Enjoy it.

world didnt end today :-)

Thank God! World didnt come to an end today.

It is past 4 30 pm IST and I am still alive. Yahoooooo!!! :D :D :D

The CERN Large Hadron Collider (LHC) did *not yet* create a black hole that will destroy the entire planet.

If all were to go according to plan, in the worst case, the Large Hadron Collider, a gigantic particle accelerator underground near Geneva, Switzerland, could re-create the very moment 13 billion years ago when scientists believe a tremendous explosion known as the "big bang" created the universe.

The Universe, it seems, started with a Big Bang – but we don’t fully understand how or why it developed the way it did. The LHC is the latest and most powerful in a series of particle accelerators that will bring new knowledge about the beginning of our Universe and how it works, as the LHC recreates, on a microscale, conditions that existed billionths of a second after the birth of our Universe.

Hmmm... sounds pretty interesting, but what if the world had ended today?!

Would we have given up on life so easily?! What about the nicest, sweetest dreams woven?!

If a big bang kinds were to really happen today, I could have only closed my eyes, thought of all my dearest, most loved people and bid goodbye.

Hey, there isnt much you could have done at that moment except this :-)

I am so glad this didnt happen today!

'Live as if you are gonna die today' - Yes, I am going to follow this from now. Who can precisely predict the aftermath of such experiments? The world might really end tomorrow!

At least this day is ours, lets live it truly.

Take care people.

kiddish...

Few days back I casually asked my friend if she too felt the same. Today, she said YES, as if supporting my conception (Yes, I call it my conception because it was something I observed, and derived a general idea out of it)

A common friend of ours acts strange. One day she behaves too close with one, and badly neglects the other. The very next day, equation will be totally opposite. She will be very friendly with the one who was her previous day's enemy, and present day's most hated enemy will be the previous day's best friend. LOL. This is the funniest thing on earth to happen, and it has been happening for quite sometime now. LOL

Human relationships are strange, funny, this time extremely kiddish :-)

p.s:
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/kiddish
http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/kiddish

Can smiles ever make you feel wierd?!

Recently we had a new-employee orientation program at office. A couple of new joinees from different teams attended the program. All of us were shuffled into 3 groups and were given some team activities. Our group's activity was to list down points for the topic - 'what basic etiquettes do you need to follow in office to maintain good inter-personal relations'.

Each of us in the group were supposed to contribute one point. My point was to give a curtsy smile whenever we cross each other, as this is a very basic friendly gesture expected.

There was one person in my group, a manager of another team who sits in the same wing as mine. We have crossed each other many times, even before this program. Infact some product teams including ours had gone out for team lunch sometime back, and some of us were dropped to the restaurant by this person in his car. I have never interacted with him, hence was not even showing any signs of familiarity anytime I went past him. Neither did he ever.

With this background, let me continue.

After I mentioned my point about giving a friendly smile to colleagues, he laughed out loud, as if indicating to me that we never did though both of us were familiar faces to each other.

Anyway, the program was over and next day we were back in office. Again, we happened to go cross each other. This time too we walked past as if strangers. Neither him nor me bothered to smile. This happened for next 2 or 3 days. The 4th day, I felt since it was my point to give a curtsy, friendly smile, let me follow my words. I smiled at him as if saying hi, and he gave a broooaaaad smile. I felt kinda wierd, yet was happy that my gesture was reciprocated, and that the friendly gesture started from my end. From then on, whenever we see each other we exchange short smiles.

Isnt it wierd that even a smile can sometimes make you feel embarassed or odd?! Till this incident happened, I always thought smile spreads only positive waves. But, I now have the realization that smiles can be many-a-time wierd too!



errata:: it is weird, and not wierd, everywhere!

World #2

Being with Nortel is making me feel PROUD today!

Nortel's VPN Client is ranked world #2 and I work for the VPN Client team here since last few months. I havent worked on the product in anyway to really get it to #2 position in the world ;-) I feel just proud to be a part of such an accredited team :-)

Recently, Nortel has gone to market with the secure "Office on Stick" product which essentially provides a portable office experience in a USB stick with customized client software. You have to just plug the USB into your laptop and you are logged into your corporate network remotely. Isnt this just like Woww!!

You may be a tiny drop of water in the big ocean, the corporate world; hundreds of little contributions from hundred different minds make new ideas click off in grand way. The accolades, recognitions you recieve may be small. It is that feeling of belongingness to the product you work for, that weighs much more. You tend to live with it, be with it through its high and dries. I still keep myself update on the progress of QChat and PTT on which I worked in Lucent; our EMS for QChat was about to go live when I quit Lucent. Even now, whenever I see any news about it, I feel 'Yes, a part of it is my baby too!'

Work is wonderful!

my blog's makeover

When I am in this rare, special josh of loving my blog, like how I am now, I love giving it a new decked-up look.
Hows the look now?! ;-) Isnt it WOW!!!
I specially like the red dotted lines shown on hyperlinks! It looks cool! And, black background makes me crazy anytime :-)
I liked everything except the beginning indentation for post's title and first line. Isnt it skew by one pixel?!

How do I fix this?! :-|

what a fun morning!

7.15 am - Trinnnn... Trinnnn... there goes my alarm.
I got up, switched on the geyser and went back to bed to catch that irresistible catnap for 10 mins.

8.15 am - Our new maid comes for work.
I was in a hurry, getting ready to catch the cab to office. She kept asking me for things, as she's new and doesnt know the whereabouts of things at home. Its all in hurry burry - checking when to turn off the idli cooker, giving her instructions, packing my things, combing my hair (so roughly as if I was plucking off weeds from my garden)

8.45 am - I am all set to leave, with a gut feeling inside that I missed my cab.
My hubby dropped me on bike till the cab pickup point. Even his 6th sense said that it was gone. I called up a colleague and lo! doubts confirmed. Cab's gone :(

8.55 am - We both, hubby, wife chase the cab on our bike.
Wow! it was wow! I loved the adventure. Racing against the traffic and traffic signals :P
I kept calling to find out where the cab was, and he kept racing.

9.05 am - Phew! finally we made it.
Reached the point, a bit off time, and I rushed into my cab. I was little worried about reactions of my colleagues, as I made them all wait for me a bit. But then realised that this happens to everyone, it was just my chance today.
Got the last seat, probably lucky this time to get the last seat because I could turn back and wave a sweet goodbye to my dearest husband who was still waiting behind the cab. He heaved a sigh of relief too and waved me back with a smile!

All in all, a truly lovable adventure! I loved today morning :)

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The perfect courtship-days-song!!!
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=OkoaVstSGls

Love

Love ... what an awesome feeling!
'Bakhuda Tumhi Ho' from 'Kismat Konnection' - some lovely charm in the song.
Simply soooperb :)

kabhi kabhi ...

Kabhi kabhi aditi ... listening to this song for nth time ... and now I have got addicted to this song ...

First few times I heard it and didnt like it at all ... felt it was like someone reciting a poem ... but as always, I kept on listening to it again and again wondering why crowd likes it so much .. and lo! I ended up loving it too ...

This is not the first time ... it has happened with many songs ... I initially listen to a new hit song trying to find out why people love like it so much ...

Why does this happen?! :-s

Is it just my wierd addiction ... or do I really like those songs at the end of it all?!

I wanna break free

Jeans, Tshirt and Shoes
Panipuris in the rain
Loooouuuudddd music
Soooperrr fast bike rides
Slow, soothing drive in that 'tangaaLi' on my pretty scooty
A romantic look at the moon at 12am
Hip-hop hair cut, trendy look
Watching some utter stupid movie with my group of friends
Weekend outings
Watching a fav tv show
Yummy yummy tasty tasty food cooked by amma
Singing my heart out, anywhere and everywhere
Giggling all the time for absolutely no reason

Recalling...

Recalling..

Saying its the best

The song touches me just every time I listen to it.
Truly amazing!

Joy of Ugadi

Simple pleasures

• Slight drizzle outside, smell rain, sip a hot cup of coffee
• A soothing piece of music on flute
• A sweet, warm hug to mom
• A bunch of colorful flowers
• A baby's giggle
• Looking at old pictures
• Coming back home after a long tiring day at work
• Looking up at the moon and stars on warm summer nights
• Swinging
• Laughing so hard that stomach starts hurting and eyes start watering
• Cuddling a teddy and watching a nice cartoon on tv
• Last day of the month when your salary gets credited
• Playing in water
• Seeing yourself in your love's eyes!
  

and more . . .

Best times!

Right?! .. Wrong?!

"The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right place,
but to leave unsaid, the wrong thing at the tempting moment."


Right!

ನನ್ನ ಗಾನ ವಿಮಾನ

ದೂರಕೆ ದೂರಕೆ ಬಹು ಬಹು ದೂರಕೆ ಹಾರುವೆ ಗಾನ ವಿಮನದಲಿ ..........

ಆ ನನ್ನ ಕನಸಿನ ಗಾನ ವಿಮಾನ ಮೆಲ್ಲಗೆ ಕುಸಿಯುವ ಸ್ಥಿತಿಯಲ್ಲಿದೆ ... ನಾನು ಮನಸ್ಸು ತುಂಬಿ ಹಾಡಿ ಯಾವ ಕಾಲ ಆಗಿದೆ ... ನೆನ್ನೆ ಸಂಜೆ ಹಾಗೆ ಸುಮ್ಮನೆ ಹಾಡಲು ಶುರು ಮಾಡಿದ್ದೆ ... ಧ್ವನಿ ಮತ್ತು ಉಸಿರು ಎರಡೂ ಚೆನ್ನಾಗಿ ಬರಲಿಲ್ಲ ... ಸಂಗೀತದಿಂದ ನನ್ನ ಮನಸ್ಸಿಗೆ ಸಮಾಧಾನ ಸಿಗುವ ಬದಲು ಅತಿ ಅಸಮಧಾನವೇ ಆಗಿತ್ತು ... ಪ್ರತಿ ದಿನ ಅಭ್ಯಾಸ ಮಾಡಿ ಹಾಡಿದಾಗ ಸಿಗುವ ಸಂತೋಷ ಹೀಗೆ, ಹುಣ್ಣಿಮೆಯೋ ಅಮವಸ್ಯೆಗೋ ಒಮ್ಮೆ ಹಾಡಿದಾಗ ಆಗುವ ದುಃಖ ಹೇಗೆ ಎಂದು ಬಹಳ ಚೆನ್ನಾಗಿಯೇ ಅರಿವಾಯಿತು.

ವಸುಮತಿ madamರನ್ನು ಎಷ್ಟು miss ಮಾಡಿಕೊಳ್ಳುತಿದ್ದೀನಿ ... ಪ್ರತಿ ದಿನ ಮಧ್ಯಾನ college ಮುಗಿಸಿ ಅವರ ಮನೆಗೆ ಸಂಗೀತ ಪಾಠಕ್ಕೆ ಹೋಗುತಿದ್ದೆ ... ನಮ್ಮಿಬ್ಬರಿಗೂ ತೃಪ್ತಿ ಆಗುವಷ್ಟು ಹಾಡಿ, ಅವರು ಕಲಿಸಿ, ನಾನು ಕಲಿತು, ಸಂಗೀತದ ಜಗತ್ತಿನಲ್ಲೇ ಹರಟೆ ಹೊಡೆದು, ಆ ಲೋಕದಲ್ಲೇ ಲೀನರಾಗಿ finally ಘಂಟೆ ನಾಕು ಹೊಡೆದಾಗ "aunty ನೀವಿನ್ನು ಊಟ ಮಾಡಿ " ಅಂತ ಹೇಳಿ ನಾನು ಹೊರಟು ಮನೆಗೆ ಬರುತಿದ್ದೆ ... ಮನೆಗೆ ಬರುವ ದಾರಿಯುದ್ದಕ್ಕೂ ಆ ದಿನ ಹೊಸದಾಗಿ ಕಲಿತಿದ್ದ ರಾಗ ಅಥವಾ ಹೊಸ ಹಾಡನ್ನೇ ಗುನುಗುತ್ತಾ ನನ್ನದೇ ಲೋಕದಲ್ಲಿ drive ಮಾಡುತಿದ್ದೆ ... ಒಮ್ಮೊಮ್ಮೆ ಮಳೆ ಬಂದರಂತೂ ನನ್ನನ್ನು ಹಿಡಿಯುವರೇ ಇರುತ್ತಿರಲಿಲ್ಲ ... ಮಳೆ ಹನಿ ಸಣ್ಣಕ್ಕೆ ನನ್ನ ಕೈ ಮೇಲೆ ಬೀಳುತ್ತಿರುವಾಗ ನಾನು full excitementನಲ್ಲಿ ಹಾಡುತ್ತಾ.. drive ಮಾಡಿದ್ದ ಆ ದಿನಗಳು ... ಸಿಕ್ಕಾಪಟ್ಟೆ miss ಮಾಡ್ಕೊತೀನಿ ... those lovely days in my own music world ...

ಆ ದಿನಗಳೇ ಸುದಿನ ...

Evergreen

Happy Women's Day

“It is not how much we do, but how much love we put in doing.

It is not how much we give, but how much love we put in the giving”

- Mother Teresa

Salutations to all women in our lives!

Dreams . . . Reality

Dreams are a reality. But realizing all dreams, is that a reality too?!
I guess not!

'God wouldnt give you the ability to dream without the ability to make your dreams come true' - I have kept preaching this for quite some time now. But, I wonder if it really makes any sense . . . ?!